Today I felt something that I had seldom felt before
Feelings of loneliness, as if left stranded on the sea-shore
I realized how hard it is to be left all alone
As if something has been taken and far away thrown
I hardly felt like breathing, like it didn’t matter anymore
I very much felt like screaming, until my lungs could give no more
This feeling of solitude often comes and goes
But this time it came like a gust of wind that quite fiercely blows
To know that I am here sitting all alone
Wishing it was your hand that I could now hold
But knowing that you’re out there with others
It hurts so much that in words it can’t be told
I wonder if you think of me when you’re having a good time
I only wish I could be the reason for each of your smiles
But here I am dreaming about the time when you will be mine
And you are so very far away, with others having a good time.
There are things that I wish I would not have seen.
Sounds that I wish I would not have heard.
Dreams that I wish I would not have had.
Simply because they are just too painful to remember.
“If you can’t tell the person how you feel, then write about it. If u can’t love the person, then love the character based on the person.”
“Here I am wondering how to force feed a creative mind with boring facts. Hoping and paying little heed to the fact that maybe somewhere it might be considered a crime.”
-Ak the Wordsmith
I’m bleeding… It doesn’t hurt
I’m bleeding… I’ve never felt so good
I’m bleeding… I’ve never felt anything like this before
I’m bleeding… It’s truly an amazing feeling
I’m bleeding… I don’t want to stop
I’m bleeding… All over the page
I’m bleeding… Fountains of words flowing incessantly
“So, do you want to tell me what’s on your mind?” he said.
“I’m just thinking that tomorrow night I’ll be coming here alone.” she said.
“Well, that’s just the way it is supposed to be.” he said.
They both stood there looking at their reflection in the stream as minutes passed by without a word being said by either one of them.
“Are you going to tell me what’s really on your mind or do I have to spend all night trying to read it?” he said after a pause.
There comes a time when all of us at some point in our lives wish to forget someone or something. I believe if i think long enough I will be able to recall some instances where I may have felt the same way.
The thing I noticed about this is a rather common yet unintentional mistake that we make. We focus on the thing that we are trying to forget so much that we end up making it next to impossible to forget it.
We think about the person or thing we wish to forget not knowing that thinking about it just makes it more prominent in our minds. Imagine a picture of a beach with the silhouette of a person walking on the beach in the center of the picture. Now if one is asked to cut out the person from the picture and imagine the picture without the person, he would still have the person in the same position in the picture in his mind. That is because we concentrate on the person to cut him out off the picture, sometimes to the extent that the person becomes the only thing of interest in the picture to us and we end up ignoring the setting altogether. One may even say that although we cut the body of the person from the picture, his soul still lingers there.
To sum up, all I can say is,
“Thinking about something or someone is not the most appropriate of ways to forget about that something or someone.”
– Ak the Wordsmith